Miss the motherhood moment!

This morning i'm supposed to follow hubby gi keje. Bukannya ape sebab nak buat allignment my car. Last 2 days i langgar lubang besar. Tp tak boleh bangun tadi ngantuk sangat. Now sorang2 kat umah boring sangat nak kena tunggu hubby balik after 12pm nnt. Nak keluar tak pandai pulak nak drive my hub's manual car. What to do? At this moment i really miss Adam. Normally on saturday morning after my hub gi keje and while i masih lagi tdo kat bilik, Adam mesti akan keluar gi living room and bring remote control and mula kejutkan i untuk switch on his fav cartoon either kat ceria ke, disney channel ke, phdc ke or any channel yang ada cartoon. Pastu mesti nak mintak buatkan susu, the usual ayat "...ma shushu ma..." and mintak makanan. Dalam kul 10 macam tu, Adam akan start mintak nasi pulak. Normally i'll cook him soup, he loves it. Petang sikit mesti nak bawak Adam kuar jln2 n for sure mkn2 lagi. Dan tak lupa jugak everytime kuar mesti ada je benda nak beli kat Adam. Be it baju ke, toys ke, whatever la. At least satu benda mmg kena beli. But now i really cannot tahan the feeling when lalu depan any kids boutiqe especially gap, baby guess, quicksilver or levis (my favorite apparel brand for Adam) tengok baju2 yang cantik, rasa rindu sangat dengan Adam. Even baju2 n kasut2 yang beli pun ada yang masih Adam tak sempat pakai. But i still remember just few days before he 'left' me, he always said "men..men" (his version of superman) and i bought him superman pyjamas. Adam suka sangat. Tak sempat nak basuh pun terus pakai. Adam sempat pakai 2 times je. oNE I pray to Allah tt He will give me another "Adam" or fs a girl oso i will be very grateful. But Adam, please trust mummy that no one can replace you. You will always be in my heart.